In My Heart

In my heart (and yours too) abides a longing for the ultimate good.  It was in the quiet afternoons when I could get away from the ever present mundane tasks, that I dared to retreat with a quote in honor of the day, for the sake of marking it as important, and mostly because its outpour could not last in my pocket.  My heart needed to live in acrylics, had to express in paint the gratitude for the time, place, and peace born within the compounds of the words.  That’s how the gates sobered the peace beyond my understanding.

Somehow the signs continued miraculously appear…  A visit inspired activity blossomed in the heart of a pineapple for me to share…


“i carry your heart with me ( carry it in my heart)….

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

( here is the rotor the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of a tree called life:which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart ( i carry it in my heart)

__e.e. cummings


It was a time to come home for healing and Daniel, the oldest of four, came to harvest a pineapple from our garden.  Sometimes words fail us to have a salve to a problem, and that’s when doing the right possible thing leaves us refreshed…

To grow a pineapple, all one needs to do is slice the crown and place it in water for a few days to see the roots evolving.  Then it’s about putting it in ground and watering it to give it hope to thrive, just like humans…  The length of time may surprise you…  So much depends upon the weather…  and the sun does make a difference…  Maybe that’s where the warmth sweetens the juice.  They say the smaller ones are sweeter.  I seldom had one that wasn’t and some were even bigger.  Go figure.


 Daniel had called to say he was coming and I remembered him saying he was standing by the edge of a river near Hailley, Idaho.  In Sun Valley is where he first set his heart to learn the practice of being an adult.  What ?  I’m still working at it !
We unfold chapter by chapter…

I could write volumes about what I didn’t know to do as a mother.  I prefer to tell you the secret that got me through the squishy puddles and raging ravines:  the gift from a now dearly departed friend, Kitty Bucur. I have the Zondervan 1988 NIV Bible by my side.  She signed it on October 24, 1996.  Day by day, I reach for the calming wisdom imparted from our Father.  Some years ago, after yet another destined, unforeseen location to call home, away from the gates, a canvas invited my hand to reach for the brushes and paint.  At the time I became aware of the difference of trusting humans beings beyond our Lord:
” But blessed is the  man who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream. “
__ Jeremiah 17: 7-8
I read that the Lord searches our hearts and knows our minds.  That is where I found the solace.  After all, we are His children.
In prayer, we serve to God His due reverence; He serves our just rewards and often in subtle ways.
Now trust His love to be within our hearts and yours.
I am happy to know Daniel uncovered his joy…in meeting dear Tara.
” Your faith can move mountains… your doubt can create them.
All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen. “
_ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Daniel and Tara continue to celebrate their hearts’ contentment in sharing a life together…

We can find humor at the heart of Love itself…

“Love is like a pineapple, sweet and undefinable.”  __Piet Pieterszoon Hein

I just got to trust in all that unfolds  as it was so aptly written in 1927:

” You are a child of the universe,

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. “

__Max Ehrmann

Please let me know what is in your heart.  I would love to read your comments…


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